Hey y'all! Long time no see, I know, I know. Recently I've come to a block, regarding something that is a big part of my life and something that my family doesn't know. In my eyes, it's not important for my family to know. I am asexual. For those of you who don't know, asexuality refers to people who are not interested in sexual experiences, sex, intercourse, and things of the sort (at least this is my experience and understanding). Sexual stimulation and intercourse does nothing for me. I do not crave it and I do not enjoy it. However, I am what some may refer to as a "romantic asexual" meaning that I would still love to have a romantic relationship. Kissing, cuddling, hand holding, all those things that people think are just "little". They're my favorite. They're all I want. Someone to love me, make me laugh, be there for me. I just need someone in my life that is kind. Someone who can accept me for who I am and love me and all that I can offer.
Referring to earlier, I started having feelings for this guy named Brandon, he lives in Ontario, Canada and our feelings started growing for eachother. We talked about meeting, how amazing it would be to be together. It came to an end though. He didn't take my asexuality seriously. I told him from the beginning, I will have no interest in a sexual relationship, only a romantic one. It's silly of me to think that a 19 year old boy would be interested in anything less than sex. He told me "just because there's a goalie doesn't mean you can't score". That bothered me, but I shook it off time and time again, always retorting back "but what if the goalie is really good?"
Sadly, our little relationship is over. I'm not going to be pressured into something I am not interested in, especially in such a large aspect of my life, to pleasure someone else. That's like asking a gay man to be with a straight woman or asking a Christian to give up their religion (extreme examples, but...)
Something important that I think everyone needs to know is: don't push people. If someone says and make it clear that "I'm not interested" or "I don't want that". Sex is a lifestyle and its a very important aspect of humanity. There just happens to be people, like myself, who aren't interested and who don't enjoy these experiences like others may.
Fair Winds, Glories.
